Shibire wo kirashiteru Boku wa mazo no chi wo hiki Sado no kimi wo matsu Dekireba doku no baiser de
Hitan yue ni bitoku mieru Kimi wa saigo no mama de Kioku ubete kizukarenu you ni Saisho no mama
Tokei wa hidarimawari demo Okashita tsumi wa kaereru Saisho de saigo no rikaisha yakitsukete
Iyagaru boku wo mite Tsuyoku soshite yasashiku Muriyari no ketsudan Keshite kimi ni wa ienai
Kawa no kishimu oto ga itai Kizu wo fukamete yukou Shittobukai kimi wa Itsu demo reiketsu na no
Osanai koro no gyakutai ga ne Ima demo wasurezu ni itai Naze mama wa inai no Oshiete yo
Ah itsu ka wa yasashisa ni kizuite Haha naru yurikago no naka de
Hitsuu yue ni mae ga mieru Boku no saigo no mama de Semete kimi ni kizukarenu you ni Saisho no mama
Tokei wa hidarimawari demo Okashita tsumi wa kaereru Saisho de saigo no rikaisha Kowashita
Boku ni wa yasashisugita no ka na Mukashi no TRAUMA wo utsushi Saigo no kimi made Kowashita boku wa sado
+eng.translation+
impatient the masochist's blood runs in my veins I wait for you, the sadist if I can do it with a poisonous kiss
because of sorrow I cannot see virtue you are the last mother the memory buried so that you won't realise the first mother even though the clock turns backwards the sin I've committed can't be changed the first and last person who understood me is burned into my memory
see me resisting strongly and then kindly forcing a decision I can never tell you the creaking sound of leather hurts me let's make the wound even deeper you, deeply jealous are you always so cold-hearted? even now I don't want to forget the abuse of my childhood why don't I have a mother? tell me...
someday I'll realise kindness inside the mother-like "cradle"...
because of anguish I cannot see before me my last mother at least, so that you won't realise the first mother even though the clock turns backwards the sin I've committed can't be changed the first and last person who understood me is destroyed
were you too kind to me? the reflection of a trauma from long ago I destroyed you, the last one am I a sadist?