-kaj- i all alone i look for somebody in the dark i all alone no one hear me no one see me i feel my self so lonely i just want to find some one who under stand me who look like me and think like me in my obscure world my~ world ~ so predictable so uninspired i need someone who bring some new so i create a doll i give to her some my memoirs some my ideas... she is perfect but there is a flaw she did not answer me but i never left my hope... my dear Gerda, why you isn't alive i just want to hear your voice because... i all alone -gerda- i awake in the very strange plase this room was dark and someone cry here that was a man, he called somebody with the name Gerda he just pray to hear her and i don't know what for so i come up and touch his shoulder and ask 'what's going on?' whats going on... he look like mad and only waved, saying "you just a dream, because there no one in my world." but... he raised his head and looked at me strangely and said...