This vessel of mine and it's needs fears desires how silly am I to think I had control when you came to my side out of worry and of wonder my mind was too wary thought you too scary So suddenly my chimpanzee lizard brain reaction brought a crushing hand down and I'm so sorry that it happened but there's nothing I can do now but feel the pain you can't so I will I'm sorry little spider-bro still This vessel of mine such anxious disposition so quickly to judge and lay out decisions it's enemies within but it's lashing out consistant you should have known the danger couldn't keep yourself a stranger This vessel of mine a jumbled bag of feelings a dopamine junkie from the receptors I am wielding and nothing must get in its way and I'm sorry that you did that day