Now I can't even think back When I reminisce on my own past I cringe It gets under my skin like a syringe. I binge on food for thought. Avoiding memory lane on my way home Get lost and have to look for a pay phone It's so strange I've got no change I could have sworn I did when I left My breath gets heavy with every theft ??Y'all didn't round my childhood?? If I could have smiled I would Try to keep them to a minimum But one got cracked while I was killing 'em Back to the present here and now in modern times When Satan's got me signing dotted lines I pick up the phone and call People in my own hometown collect And tell them things change, but they just won't accept That's no surprise; it's so ironic me having to ask them for directions But I just got dead air, cut lines and bad connections People who would help Change their number to unlisted 411 info left me unassisted Wickedly twisted happenings Is it coincidence? I choose to think so. Deep in thought my eyes blink slow Pictures appear like slideshows Cause my mind knows Each and every minute detail Total recall is leaving me pale Sick to my stomach Nauseous Forces of nature bring my homing instinct It stinks It's so distinct. Now let me think a minute. Huh, this is the much traveled trail from my past No one unbeaten path And funny memories are now making me laugh
Just a flash back kid, it's just a flashback I'm getting laughed at mental attack, mental attack
I should design forts To pro-tect my mind From these time warps 'Cause I'm off course Begin to rethink my final thoughts Philosophies My personal creations face conflict You're slipping By following my footsteps Cause I'm slick Now I stand alone in this ghost town My clothes make the most sound Upside down smiles Grin while folks frown I feel my Sacred Heart get filled with hatred Ancient rituals of a teary eyed child with nothing fake kid the flash backs of my past acts Are numerous Inside the uterus Other kinds haven't been so humorous
My laugh lines are faked for the last time I'm past my prime Climaxing again is a task of mine I'm homeward bound; break out the map and atlas I ask gas station attendants kid and they act pissed I'm black listed For not staying true to white lies I fight guys in darkness Heartless until the night dies. And Then I shed some light on what's the matter Reflections in the looking glass self scatter When the hard stairs made it shatter 7 years back luck? That ain't nothing new ! I'm searching for something true But most my friends are fronting too. What's up with you? Only once you catch amnesia Same old procedure Valuable times lost at leisure Plus I broke my compass The needle always points backwards There's no communications Whack herbs That cost me black words Impossible Facial expressions in sign language Cause your mind your mind anguish Misinterpretations are dangerous No one knows who the stranger is But still yet know my face is vaguely familiar, Thinking back wouldn't kill you would it? Or would it? I can't catch no one's attention Even Ignored by the lord my mind sided dimensions
It's just a flashback kid, it's just a flashback I'm getting laughed at mental attack; mental attack…