Everything makes me nervous and nothing feels good for no reason Waking up its really worth it the same dark dread every morning Senior year, here in Mahwah a new world just around the corner Leave me behind let me stagnate in a fortress of solitude Smoking's been okay so far but I need something that works faster So all I want for Christmas is no feelings no feelings now and never again
There is a face playing all round and red that stretches across my mouth All for protection nobody gets in and nobody gets out I used to look myself in the mirror at the end of everyday But I took the one thing that made me beautiful and threw it away I was a river I was a tall tree I was a volcano And now I'm asleep on top of a mountain I've been covered in snow As I surrendered what made me human and what I thought was true And now there's a robot that lives in my brain he tells me what to do I can't do nothing without his permission that wasn't part of the plan So now at Rock Ridge Pharmacy I will be waiting for my man But there is another down in the dungeon who never gave up the fight And he'll be forever screaming sometimes I hear him say on a quiet night