it's getting too late for you to go home i'm running on empty but there's nowhere else to go and you thank me for biding my time i'm holding my tongue what was i meant to say
it's getting too late for you to go home i'm running on empty but there's nowhere else to go but i promised that i'd be a good host
my heart is beating just loud enough for me to notice it listening never speaking but taking in the sound it's like i'm searching my eyes are slow and dry they itch each day like i'm resetting i'm getting more tired i don't fear sleep anymore it's welcome now i knew what i was doing i tell myself it's my choice
confusion forgave me for chewing my cheeks and thankfully choosing to and asking to and lying out to everyone by lying down and keeping my jacket on despite the fact that it was far too hot to
confusion forgave me for chewing my cheeks you woke me up at three o'clock coughing up the awkwardness and wanting you to leave
(waiting out the storms day by day feeling like spinning passivity beckons paving the way to fictitious bliss wishing i was somewhere else and wanting you to leave)
it's like i could slide off the ground again either i'm rotating or the earth is again counting seconds rampant self-awareness killing any escape and writing about someone else not depending on them or their friends for motivation my formulaic destruction now it's almost over i might have broken out not empty anymore rediscovering colours and familiar sensations memories re-imagined or the discovery
of lies my eyes are telling won't let me return anymore
i move further away from you each step that i take
(and thankfully choosing to and asking to) (you woke me up at three o'clock) (it's getting too late)