Everyone is incompetent, and everything is useless.
What are 'connections? What is 'affection'? And 'not hurting'? Ah, Smiling in public, that is my boundary line. Absolute refusal, a thick border that won't disappear. Chronic, abnormal rejection. Don't come in don't violate me. I don't need anything like kindness. The conceited paranoia of one with no family, a human phobia harmless to people and animals. Don't touch me, saying you won't change. Facing downwards, crawling and crying. No, i don't want this no more. I look up at the inversed world. A bundled up past, now making only the destructive noises and discord resonate.
What is 'warmth'? What is 'kindness'? A distrust born from fear. I imagine and become despicable. I delude myself and become unpleasant. I seclude myself and become wounded. I'll tear all that away once I return to life. Paranoia going back and forth, a human phobia of delusional hypertrophy. Runing from place to place, runing from place to place. Please, try to touch me more gently. No, i don't want this no more. I look down on this world of mistakes. If this conspiracy I've gotten used to doesn't change, then it'd better if nobody else was here. Ah, since birth, my heart has been 404 not found. Loving Cutting Affixing Envying "Even tiresome things ar wonderful" "I know." "I know." Now it's discommunication. "All i want to do is something crazy." Running away only from delusions, I get entangled, facing above, standing up and laughing. The truth is that I want only you, a cable that connects our hearts. Circulating voices spin a chord, since I knew I wasn't alone. What are 'connections? What is 'affection'? Right now, i feel that I've come to not understand anything at all. I'll jump out from there, I'll run away from here. After all, I'm not that bad, I am not bad, I'm not bad, I'm not bad because i should be able to change.